Flaws.

1. I am almost sensitive all the time.
2. Hot tempered.
3. Inconsistency over passion.
4. Insensitive is usage of words during conversation.
5. Entertain my friends by insulting my other friends.
6. When they do that to me, i don't feel good, back to 2.
7. My attitude towards life is very negative sometimes, or maybe most the time.
8. I always ignore my friends whenever i feel like it..
9. ...actually i just want their attention.
10. I always tries to move on, yea trying, seldom happens.
11. I run away from problems.

Apparently you can see how fucked up i actually am. Some flaws I've already known and trying hard to reduce and some I've realised only recently. I don't have many friends to be honest, or i chose not to have many friends. Its a sad thing when you eager your bookout so much, thinking you have so much to do during the weekends with your closest friends, like grabbing a drink, catching a movie, having supper and random topics to talk through the night. It is like near impossible now i don't know why. I feel that my bookout has been the only motivation for me to stay strong for the week. But sometimes, i really don't know what am i working hard for.

Maybe it is time to really stay a distance from some of my closest friends for awhile till I've learnt the definition of "appreciation of life." I am sometimes glad I have NS, an early RO give me alot alot lots of time to think and reflect on life, not forgetting my plans ahead.

Anyway, will blog about my plans ahead after NS. need yall advice.

Till Then,